polyamorous

the practice, desire, or acceptance of having more than one intimate relationship at a time with the knowledge and consent of everyone involved.

It's never that easy.But what if that's who I am? I don't want to be like that. Maybe I just need more time on my own, need to be more independent than I like to consider myself. I don't need to take it so seriously though, it's just a thought. I might just have wandering eyes. Who knows. Maybe I'm afraid of commitment, which I never thought about before. I don't think I am...Or maybe I'm trying to commit to the wrong person.
I need something new.

I'm not happy, and I'm not completely sure why. I feel like in order to be happy I have to figure out what's wrong, come up with excuses to explain it...Is it just this place?
I know I'd like to go back, but I also love it here. I feel stuck..I won't both.
Back to polyamorous tendencies, now its with places too.