And in dreams you're always near to me

The pond I was shown today was beautiful and tranquil. I loved it. I'll put a picture up of it soon. It's one of my ideal atmospheres. Complete relaxation. And I figured I could get it all out of my head for a while, not just you, but everything. And for a while, I did. It was nice, releasing like that.
But after all my thoughts swirled in the water for a bit, and I felt my energy and the energy all around intertwine and settle, you came up again.

Your essence is always with me. The essence of you is so much mixed in mine in more ways than one. And although I have renewed confidence, to tell you what I think about is still scary. Because I'm so afraid to lose you, but I need to take this chance at least one more time. Give it another go, see if maybe we could have had something good. If not we still have something just as good and I want that to never go.
Whether its as you are or something more you will always be as calming as the sound of pouring rain, and as warm as the blood flowing through my veins. In my own way I need you around to keep me sane. I will always see you through, I promise.