Wanted.

I wish I knew what I wanted. I wish I had made a decision earlier, because to no one's surprise I lost my chance, twice. I wish I had made better decision, I wish I wasn't awkward, I wish you could see in me what I see in you, and you. I wish I wish I wish, I want I want I want.

I don't even have something to ACTUALLY be miserable about. But I can't help it. You make me so happy every time I see you. And I know I had my chance, I know I did, but could you not play with my heart? Could you let me know? Should I pursue? Should I leave you alone??? Cause if there's anything I really have an addiction for it's you. I need to get over rejection, I can't handle it right now otherwise I'd ask. I'd be straightforward and ask.

"Oh my heart, I want you to be strong, I need you to be all I believe in."