Riddle Me This

"You've changed so much. I guess that's what happens. I wish you knew how much you changed me. I wonder if I changed you, if your life is different because of me. Because mine's different. My God, you taught me so much, and now we don't even talk to each other. I guess that's what happens."

I stole this from a friend. I wish I knew what is was from cause it seems unbelievably familiar....anyway...it's my message to an old friend whom I lost long ago. It was my fault, but I wish I could tell him this, these exact words with a ton of apologies woven throughout. I miss him...a lot... I told him Happy New Year, figured it was a new year after all, maybe...just MAYBE I could slowly, super awkward snail slowly, work my way into an acquaintance...or a friend? If I'm unbelievably lucky? There's no way he'd want to talk to me knowing about other things...but a girl can wish dream and hope can't she? Sometimes I think I want too much. It's most likely true.

Anyway, if you're out there reading(yeah right, going back to dreaming) ...I miss you and thinking back to all the good times we had makes my heart ache. I miss my best friend <3